以前在逛别人的博客的时候看到过一篇同名的文章，我很喜欢这个标题，是很夏天的感觉，所以也挪用来写一写五月的一些想法。也学着找了两首最近常听的歌来写这个月的例行post，夏天和音乐都是美好的东西。
I once read an article with title "Softly, sing the songs of summer"(sorry for my terrible translation which I think it didn't convey its aura contently), inspired by it, I also want to share with you several songs I listened these days as well as my related thoughts. Summer and music both deserve my highly praise.
Behti Hawa Sa Tha Woh
这首是电影《3 idiots》里的一首插曲，印地语唱的但是不阻碍体会那种很“超越性”的感觉（找个形容词真难），反而有一种吸引人的异域感。整部电影也是这样，特别理想主义，很多笑点但是不影响主题的深刻性和反思性。好听的和声就像真的开着车在山间疾行一样，开阔而灿烂。中文翻译得也好，“我们为明日愁言，他只顾畅想当今——让每一刻壮美不凡”，我好喜欢这句话。
It is a episode of movie three idiots, which original is in Hindi but that doesn't stop you from feeling very "transcendent". As well as that movie, a very idealist masterpiece. I really appreciate the harmony, which really conveys a sense of freedom, bright sunshine and so on. The Chinese is also remarkable, "We used to be worried about tomorrow, He used to only enjoy today-He used to live every moment fully." I love this phrase.
讲讲我跟这部电影的故事好了。第一次看应该还是在初中，当时很喜欢主人公的理想主义。到高中觉得学习压力太大，觉得“在快乐中学习”简直是不可能的事情，就比较批判它，觉得里面有些刻意地忽略了“追求卓越”过程中的种种艰难。现在再看一遍，又觉得理想主义虽然不能解决问题，但实实在在是很珍贵的东西。很多事情，你如果把它当成真的，那它在一定程度上就确实是真的(虽然这话听起来很玄学)。
I got to know this movie when I was in my primary school, in which I was touched by the idealism filled in the movie. But all was different when I entered junior school, with heavy pressure in studying, I blamed this movie for it more or less ingored the difficuties in the way you chasing for excellent. However, my opinion changed again now. I began to treasure idealism, and sometimes I think, if you believe something is true, that it is real in some degree. At lease in a limited period or space balabala.
最近不是找了份工打来着，感觉挺没意思的，事情都比较琐屑。虽然知道确实第一回工作很难直接上手造火箭，但是天天拧螺丝真让人心生退意。有时候干着干着会有点莫名其妙的脾气，一转念想觉得就是那种“成为了自己原本讨厌的人”的感觉。我现在觉得，可能了解过开心的和不开心的才能够看到事情的全貌吧。我还觉得没准去做学术也挺好的，不过可能也只是一种逃避（？）还有一个想法就是真的要坚持自己的想法，其实我一点也不想实习来着，但是看到身边的同学都找了，又莫名觉得紧张。可能把时间省下来多读读书，享受一下大学生活的尾声这样更好。不要人云亦云，有时候有自己的一点理想主义也蛮好的。
As I have mentioned in previous posts, I have found an internship job. But I found it not so challenging and interesting as I think. Though I know it is hard for you to find a meaningful and demanding job as you are a green hand, I feel loath to do this job. Sometimes I just want to resign but hesitant for don't want to be irrespondsible. Perhaps you can only understand something until you have experienced it comprehensively and got to konw its pros and cons. Compared with engaging in a job, perhaps dedicated to academic career is choice more suitable to me? I wondering. Another lesson I learn from this job is that a person should really be persevere in his own choice, listen his inner voice and be loyal to himself confidently. In fact I was reluctantly to find this internship programme at first, but ultimately ran counter to my first thought because of peer pressure. Almost everyone around me find some shining job with a equally wonderful VC, which left me feel if I refuse to find a job I would fall behind in this chasing running competition. I wish I have stuck to myself at the begining so that I can spend more time in studying, enjoying my few remaining time in university. Well, now that it is. Just finish it and fine myself some interesting work in the following, something like be a volunteer in some academic organization, find some demanding and challenging job, be a translator of some interesting English programme, etc.
还有一点就是不要太给自己设限。以前一直觉得不应该保留太多爱好，不然就会什么都做不好落得竹篮打水一场空的地步。但是现在觉得自己做不到，我真的是一个很喜欢折腾的人，也确实很能从折腾里面获得快乐。现在觉得，我干脆就接受这个事实并且快乐折腾吧。以前高中老师一直说，文科学的是学习能力，不多学点，怎么能让这个“学习能力”派上用场呢。
About this song and this movie, last but not least, it taught me don't find a limitation for myself curtly, if you want to chase for being excellent. I am really a person fond of exploring everything interestiing. For example, building a knowledge base of international politics, making a journalism documentary, managing my own website, learning something relate to computer programming, playing violin, even reading some philosophy books and composing and so on. I used to think it is unwise to keep so many hobbies, but I changed my mind now and think I 'd better accept this and enjoy it.
Mystery of love
也是一首电影插曲，这回是《以你的名字呼唤我》。真的是一首很夏天的歌，轻快但有着淡淡的悲伤（？我总是感觉慢节奏的歌都有点儿伤感），就像隔着一道雨幕，或者是一阵薄雾观察一个已经消逝的美好夏天的感觉。
我在骑着自行车穿过校园的时候就在听这首歌。今天刚好忙完一周都挂念着的一些事情，下午睡了一个大觉起床直接去吃饭，天气因为要下雨阴沉下来了。穿着夏天的花裙子，一只手轻轻地搭在车把手上，凉爽的风吹过来，经过图书馆门口那条种着两排梧桐树的路。梧桐树有着很大很绿的叶子，把路都遮了起来，显得很安静，笔挺的树干在风中摇曳的十分精神。骑单车的速度也正合适，比走路要快但仍然足够看清楚，就像看电影一样，以一个置身事外的视角快速地进行一种“观察”，这种时候总是很能让我想到一些比较大而空的概念。
正好今天大创答辩完了，下午又看到一些大四的同学在校园里穿着学士服拍照。这种巧合让我联想到一年以后我们也要毕业了，惆怅（again and again）。其实一直想以某种形式回顾一下大学生活来着，但实在是太“得失寸心知”了，也太难言说清楚了。
原本对五月的定义是“怀疑和探索”来着，但到了月末，觉得有些问题能给自己一个回答了，也就释然了一些。原本还想吐槽一些什么的，打了几段字又开始自我宽慰。最后干脆都删掉了，都是些老生常谈的内容。总而言之，I am fine, wish so as you, 让我们在这个美好的季节里，悄悄地，唱起夏天的歌。
（其实这篇大概是一周前写的，但是莫名其妙想都翻译一下英文版，弄了一半忙期末去了就没继续写了，现在来看莫名有点“不食人间烟火”？大概是因为期末又来了熬大夜会让人变得不那么romantic吧，不过就算这样，它还是上一段时间的一些想法，所以也po出来得了，期待六月的random thought会有一些不一样的新points~）
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